Same Old Song and Dance

As I start to type this entry, I don't really have anything specific in mind that I want to say.  However, it's been almost a month since my last post, and I do not want to get back into the habit of neglecting my blog entirely.  So, off we go.

I haven't had many responses to my ad for players who might be interested in doing an acoustic cover band type project.  I've had a couple that seemed at least promising, but one flaked out for reasons unknown, and the other is having medical issues.  I hope the latter recovers fully and quickly, and that he will get back to me when he's able.  But, it is something I would still like to pursue.  The ad is up in a few places, so we'll see what happens.  

School is kicking my ass.  I had recent disputes with classmates, an instructor, my academic advisor, and a financial aid type person.  This is complicated by the fact that I had to take a part time job in a call center and have been unable to find anything full time.  It's very frustrating, and I'm starting to really worry about my finances.  

Musically, I've started work on compositions, but I am finding it very difficult to do so consistently.  The truth is that I feel like I've been trying to get somewhere in music for most of my adult life, and the fact that I have never come anywhere close to being able to make a living from it has seriously affected my drive.  It's very hard to remain motivated to do something that has no real return on investment.  Yes, I do feel some need to just do it for its own sake, and because I recognize that it completes me in a way that nothing else on this planet does.  However, the reality that I have next to no audience wears on me.  Some days it's worse than others; lately, it's been a real bitch.  

But, I carry on.  Life is short; mine will be over soon enough, and I feel like I have plenty left to do. 

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